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Devastated!

I am still recovering from reading abt WiseGuy and Lola. If you haven’t already done so, please go over to offer your support for her.

Kirsten from Dragondreamer’s Lair is putting something together to let WiseGuy know that Lola will never be forgotten. Please email her to find out more.

I don’t know if there is anything worse than losing your child. There are no words that can describe what she is going through. My thoughts and prayers are with her and Lola for now. God Bless!

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Knock Knock

Who’s there?

Its the boos!

Yup… I think I felt them. For the first time on Monday afternoon (15w6d). And then again yesterday(16w). Totally freaking awesome! I have been waiting for this day for years. I just can’t believe that it is finally happening! Me so happppppy! I was at work when this happened. I immediately sent an email to DH saying “OMG OMG Boo is kicking”. To which he replies “Good. They are finally doing what I can’t do! :)”. Too cute! Love that guy!

How did I get so lucky?!

 

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Told the world this weekend

Yes, its true. We did! We pushed it off for the longest time possible. But we did not want to hide it from our only remaining grandparents any longer. And of course, you tell the grandparents, you tell the entire extended family. But it went much better than we expected. My grandma didn’t believe us at first. She was moved to tears when we finally convinced her that this is truly happening. She is beyond ecstatic. She is my mom’s mom and has literally ordered my mom to stay with me and help me throughout the entire pregnancy!! Shows how much she wants this. And to our surprise, everyone in the extended family was relieved and happy to hear that we were expecting. It was so wonderful to hear their responses.

But… here’s the kicker… we haven’t told anyone (in the extended family) that we are expecting twins. It is sort of a protection mechanism. People in India are still much unaware of the medical advances of the modern world when it comes to giving birth and raising healthy twins. So, the minute we tell them we are having twins, hubs and I will get bombarded with lots of advice and comments that we can do without as of this moment. It is enough that the two of us trying to cope with having a healthy pregnancy, we don’t need to hear any sad stories of how my uncle’s niece’s cousin’s daughter’s aunt’s twins were born so small that they had long-term disabilities! We figured we can probably tell them in a couple of months once we have surpassed the viability stage!

Work wise, I couldn’t hide it past 13 wks. My belly had already popped by then so I had to come out. Oh wells… one can only do so much.

The pregnancy as such has been going very good. Touch wood. I am trying to eat well. Thanks to this book that I purchased when I was 9 wks.

I was totally overwhelmed when I read this book that early, but I am glad I read it. It prepped me for the weight gain that is required of me. I would totally recommend this book to anyone expecting multiples. It is written by Dr Babara Luke — a multiples expert and contains all the tips and tricks to get healthy babies at the end of this road. My high-risk OB and my dietician swear by the principles laid out in this book. I have to admit though… I do not follow their eating plan to the T but I am aiming for the weight gain as recommended by that book — 30-35lbs gain by 28wks, 40-50lb gain total. So far I have gained about 15lbs and I will be 16wks tomorrow.

It has now been 3 wks since I last saw the boos and I am frankly surprised that I am still sane. A little more than a week left to go before I get a peek again. Can’t wait!

 

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Welcome 2011!

New year. New beginnings. Lots to hope for. And lots to wish for. Hope all your dreams and wishes come true!

It has been 6 weeks since my last update. Let me start of by saying that the boos are doing very good. Both are alive and their hearts are beating away. God bless them!

But the last 6 weeks have been very tough for my extended family. 3 deaths in the relative circle — 2 unexpected and 1 expected — each a week to a week and a half apart from each other. The last one is my grandmother — my dad’s mom. And it has been tough, very tough. She had been bedridden for more than a year now but her loss, even though a relief because she doesn’t have to suffer anymore, is tough for me. She really wanted us to have kids. And I never got a chance to share the fact that she was going to be a great-grandmother pretty soon. I will forever regret that. Another unfortunate situation was that I had to be the one to break this news to my dad. And telling someone that their mom has passed away is something I would NEVER want to do again. Hubs was travelling during this time and luckily I was at a friend’s place when I got to hear abt this. I am forever grateful for my friend who helped me cope with this and let me stay over their place for the weekend while I recouped. It has been a little over 2 weeks now. DH is now back home. And we are coping very well. We have now adjusted and the pain has subsided substantially now.

Pregnancy wise, the boos and I are doing very good. Touch wood. We are in the second trimester now!! If I had any energy, I would be doing a happy dance every time I say that… but nevertheless, you can picture me doing one. I know. Unbelievable. I am 14 wks today. Crazy! I wanted to do a celebratory post when I hit 12 wks but a little thing called guilt held me back. I have been feeling a lot of that lately.

I have had lots of other milestones since the last time I posted. Here’s a list:

  1. P4 started rising all on its when I hit 8 wks
  2. Completed weened off of all the CCRM medications
  3. Scan at local clinic to see the boos again where I saw them move for the first time! Brought me to tears! OK fine… more like bawling because it was the day my grandmother passed away!
  4. First high-risk OB appt
  5. Graduated from CCRM!!! Big Day!
  6. A normal NT scan report and seeing them move again
  7. 2 more OB appts and scans aka more moving babies

But every single time I wanted to celebrate it and announce it to the world, if not for the sadness from the family incidents, the guilt held me back. There are a lot of people out there that are still in the throes of infertility and those whose scars run real deep… much much deeper than mine. I don’t know, somehow it justs felt wrong to celebrate even though I was happy. Especially since we have started let people IRL know abt this, every single time I hear a “congratulations”, I think to myself… do they really mean it or is this news hurting them in a big way?! I know… I know… I should be happy that I have gotten this far and try to enjoy it. Trust me… I am enjoying it. I just have to convince myself that it is ok to share.

Today, for some reason, it felt ok to share. It could be the new year, the fact that I hit 14 wks, or just that I feel quite energetic today. Don’t know. Since I have kept you in the dark for so long, I have added more updated pics of the boos here.

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