Took an HPT today morning. Its over. A stark white window with nothing but 1 line.
No tears. No crying. Went back to bed. Told DH “This cycle failed”. He said “OK”. He was deep in his sleep. I don’t even know if he heard me. I just lay around in his arms for a half hour. Got up, took a shower, and went on to do the preparations for the morning New Year prayers.
It is either that I have seen so many of these BFNs that it doesn’t faze me anymore, or that I am glad that I didn’t get two lines now that later ends in a miscarriage. Or it could be that it hasn’t sunk in yet. Whatever it is, I seem to be doing OK.
DH got up and must have seen the negative HPT in the bathroom. He came over to the kitchen and said “It is OK. We will get through this”. I choked up for a couple of secs but then went on with whatever I was doing. Goddamn… writing this out is making my eyes well up.
We will get through this.
Oh I’m so very sorry. You’re right, of course – you will get through this. I just wish you didn’t have to be so strong. Many hugs being sent your way…
Oh hon…I am so, so, so sorry. I have been thinking about you & checking constantly for an update. Why does it have to be like this??? It sucks so badly.
Please take care of each other during this difficult time…
Big hugs and wishes for peace & healing.
I’m so sorry. I really am. Take care of yourself, and please vent to us whenever you need to. We are all here for you.
Fuck Fuck Fuck!
I think more than anything , it will take a few days for this outcome to sink in.
Please be emotionally prepared…for yourself and for the sake of your hubby.
Life is so unfair.
I am sorry. :(
Damn it. I’m so sorry. Take care of yourself.
You will get through this! And there will be a rainbow at the end of the tunnel!
My heart is broken for you. I’m so sorry to hear the news.
I’m so so sorry.
I am so sorry. You will get through it, together w/your DH.
I’m so sorry for all of you, I was so hoping this would be it. You are strong and very courageous and will get through it and find new paths and new energy. For now, just take comfort in your husband and those around you who love you so much.
This sucks….seirously. Your hubby sounds like the cutest man alive. I really wish this would have had a happier ending.
I am so sorry, I have been thinking of you all day. Your dh sounds amazing, what a sweet, sweet person. ((HUGS))
I am so very sorry. Oh honey. I wish the outcome would have been so different for you.
:-( I’m so sorry.
You will get through this. BFN’s are never easy no matter how many times you see them. Take the time you need before you move on. You need to be ready before you try again.
I am sorry. This is just so unfair… :(
I am so very sorry. Take good care of yourself — thinking of you.
Thinking of you this morning.
Not fair at all….WE humans have the capacity to go thru and adapt, but it really is unfair to make someone go thru this again and again….(Hugs) girl…as Nikki said, we are here any time you need us.
so very sorry this wasn’t the one…..((Hugs))
I’m so sorry. Thinking of you today.
I am sorry too. It’s okay to be hurt. Take time for yourself and your DH. I’m thinking of you.
You WILL get through this! I wish I could just give you a hug.
Thinking of you
Not sure where to put this, but thought you might like a little bit of fun. I tagged you on my blog…..take care of yourself and thinking of you.
hope you are doing alright. I am so sorry :(
((((hugs))))